back0fmylungs

hi. it's so fucking cold in here my legs are like fa fa fallinnnng off. my ipod is broken and i threw it at the wall today.
whatever i'll just get a new one...
i just watched house. which is sweet, because i forgot it came on tonight. i'm really digging third eye blind's new ep red star.
it's sexy. christmas is rolling around... yay... i still need to go shopping not like you care but yeah

tonight i had the mint chocolate milkshake from arby's and it tastes like heaven but it's making my stomach hurt like a bitch.
i'm happy because i'm pretty sure i aced my anatomy test, YAYAY! and i'm probably going to fail my math test monday.. oh well. i need to get 12 hours of community service hours done before christmas. damn interact. i think i might volunteer at the library? yeah? yeah.
i also need to talk to guidance about switching from weightlifting into sociology next semester.. hopefully i can. for reasons obvious loll.
we're watching bury my heart at wounded knee in ah and it's annoying... idk why but i don't like it. everyone is so ugly in it. my back hurts.
i swear the only thing livejournals are good for are bitching and complaining and telling people off... but i need one because i hate telling people about my problems. so livejournal > people. i need to brush my teeth.
i also need to do my god damn book report, i think i'm fdoing it on a million little peices. yeah i'm pretty sure i am.
whatttttttttttttttttttever, peace!

what the fuck. lamo.
i can't believe the weekend is more than like half over already. i still have to make a psychology poster,
and write an english paper and study for math and finish my outline on the skeletal system
AHHHs. today was okay though. me and my dad went and watched johnny at the turkey bowl. it was fun, and not hot , thank fucking god.
there was this kid who like, hurt his leg and he got layed down right in front of where we were sitting and it was weird because he was crying and there were like 56 people around him. i felt bad. if i had that many people around me while i was trying to feel better i would've  been pissed at myself for not bringing a gun to shoot them all away. billy is getting so cute, and so huge man. he's like 17 pounds!


i still haven't decided what i want for christmas. new phone, new ipod, or a whole bunch of shit that's small but would just be awesome all together. as in clothes and a new perfume and probably a couple of books. fuck, i don't know man, i suck at this shit.
i reallllllly miss hanging out with all my friends. i've been thinking about it lately and i'm realizing how much school takes up my time and how much i wish it didn't. it never did before, i just think i'm trying to hard. i just don't want to be such a failure and have nobody proud of me. my parents have seen enough of that shit in their other kids. i just don't want to have them worrying about me and having to pay for me when i can by myself. it would kill me. i've been eating away at my esteem lately and it sucks. but you know, i probably deserve it anyways so whatever. i wish fringe came on more than once a week because it's the only thing exciting in my life anymore
but yeah i want more time to hang out with people. i still have all my friends, but i have shitty relationships with all of them except for jaimee because i talk to her everyday.
i think i'm going to go watch scrubs on the awesome site that lets me.
peace!

i decided to make a new lj.
woo!